As the children lined up for their food, it appeared that their clothing was in the worst condition of all the children I had seen.

The children were generally as happy as most schools we visited, but it was hard to not be affected by how poor they are. I start to fall between two valleys: getting depressed or getting hardened in my heart. There is another place to go, but it's not easy for me to get there. Lately, as I've left a school, the old civil rights song `We shall overcome' has been the one I've been singing. Do you remember how it goes?
We shall overcome
We shall overcome
We shall overcome one day
I know
Deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome one day.


As I left Longonot, students from another nearby school started running over, asking me if we would add their school. We all say no to requests all the time; it's a part of life. But telling poor children that you can't add them right now is as depressing as anything I know of. I was angry, and as I was leaving, I recalled the second verse:
We shall live in peace
We shall live in peace
We shall live in peace one day
I know
Deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall live in peace one day.
That didn't seem to fit, so I changed it
We will not make peace
We will not make peace
We will not make peace today
I know
Deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome one day.
I didn't want to give up and make peace with what is here, and I didn't want to grow depressed. I asked God to help me to have hope, because this is a place where you feel like you are always putting Band-Aids on gaping wounds.
I found hope yesterday. We went to New Life Orphanage for their annual open house. We brought the babies and Matthew, and it was a fun day of games and seeing abandoned babies who are now flourishing.
The hope part of the day was this: when we began the process of adopting, almost 60% of the babies were adopted by white families. Today, almost 80% of the adoptions are Kenyans adopting Kenyans.
As I sat watching Kenyan families walking and playing with their babies, with Ben in my lap, it was just such a sign of hope. Kenyans saving Kenyans.
Deep in my heart, I do believe.
Your Pal,
Steve |